lately

it’s been awhile. sorry, i’ve just been too busy getting good grades. (ha)

Processed with VSCOcam with c1 preset

discovered some good running spots here in this city. dc is usually known for it’s monuments but guys… its murals deserve an honorable mention at least.Processed with VSCOcam with f2 preset

every time i pass the supreme court i feel small. i think that’s the effect they were going for.  Processed with VSCOcam with f2 preset

cheesy love in bloomingdale. wouldn’t have it any other way. (unless these are my tax dollars at work, in which case i say there is not enough glitter)Processed with VSCOcam with b5 preset

girl talk. also FULL PANEL WINDOW.

Processed with VSCOcam with c1 preset

the only way to study for an impossible exam is to add a plethora of bread and spreads to the equation at le pain quitodienProcessed with VSCOcam with f2 preset

keeping vigilance over my bike. isn’t she a beaut?Processed with VSCOcam with c1 preset

big bear cafe is becoming my spot. do i order anything? nope never. do i unabashedly bask in their indie cool environment where every attendant is reading a vintage paperback, wearing a beanie and flannel, and pouring tea from a kettle that came straight from the west indies (or world market, same difference)? yep. yep. yep. (do i also feel real self conscious in my uggs? always)

Processed with VSCOcam with f2 preset

running on u street is a complete pain because you’ve got to dodge a lot of folks, yet i always find myself here. i also always wonder what TRUE REFORMER BUILDING actually means.

Processed with VSCOcam with f2 preset

taking my roommate out to lunch after she saved me from losing my wallet twice in three months. cava mezze grill is spicy and wonderful and the perfect way to counteract a pretty crappy day working at a psych hospital.

also, i promise i do other things rather than eat …?Processed with VSCOcam with c1 preset

walk to work through capitol hill on our SNOW DAY!  Processed with VSCOcam with c1 preset

my favorite part of the city; logan circle. it is so underrated. let’s keep it that way. also, this is post-haircut selfie time, where i am in limbo between shock and mania/euphoria. Processed with VSCOcam with c1 preset

on saturday there was a snow-mergency and it was so funny. the streets were clear! i had anthropologie all to myself! everything closed early! i wore my invincible snow boots. Processed with VSCOcam with c1 preset

pretty buildings on every corner of downtown. Processed with VSCOcam with f2 preset

the national geographic museum had an exhibit featuring food, so of course i went. this was the best photo. this is what my spirit looks like.

Processed with VSCOcam with f2 preset

coffee shop, USA. my friend just quit working here, so we had a celebratory cuppa (best hot chocolate on this planet, imo)

IMG_0084lol.

IMG_0085

if i was given an indispensable amount of time and an indispensable amount of dollars i would probably spend it thrifting and rifling through old adorable photos and postcards. taken right after i said something or did something that eliza probably deemed, “inappropriate”.  Processed with VSCOcam with f2 preset

snow-mergency peaceful sidewalks. (or not so peaceful. get outside and shovel your walk! imma bout to fall and break a hip!)Processed with VSCOcam with b1 preset

i got crafty this weekend instead of studying benzodiazepines and serotonin reuptake inhibitors.

my mantra for now and forever.

Processed with VSCOcam with c1 preset

freezing run around the national mall. listening to this podcast which is really good. (if you listen, let’s discuss children of the dirt)

Processed with VSCOcam with f2 preset

last week i got a free week subscription to blue apron from my friend who is a religious subscriber…. which was great and i loved. ingredients for delicious meals sent directly to your door! i’m all about it! this ramen was supposed to serve two, but when i got to my friend’s house and realized we actually needed to feed 6, a miracle happened. a true loaves and fishes situation!

Processed with VSCOcam with f2 preset

on sunday i didn’t have to work so we went to anacostia and fed homeless women and watched the oscars. i figured if i was going to waste at least four hours of my life watching pointless nothing, i might as well do some service beforehand to make myself feel better.

also, i’m mad birdman beat out boyhood, but i guess that is now just water under the bridge.

that’s all folks! here’s to spring’s quick approach and more green grass replacing bleak grey skies.

the short of it.

IMG_0079

i woke up and looked in the mirror.

it had to go. my hair.

the salon opened at 8 am, i called at 8:03.Processed with VSCOcam with c1 preset

i scoured the internet for some inspiration, found a photo that seemed appropriate, and thanked the pinterest for being a thing. i pulled my unruly mane into a ponytail and thought this is the last time. 

parting is such sweet sorrow…. except when it isn’t. Processed with VSCOcam with c1 preset

if you live in the dc area, go ahead and call up immortal beloved.

now if only these damn bangs would grow out.

journal 52: valentine’s day

a list of everything i did on valentine’s day:

Processed with VSCOcam with c1 preset1. wake up at 8:34

2. check phone. blearily stumble through instagram, twitter, facebook, email, timehop, instagram (yes twice)

3. stumble out of bed and to bathroom. pee

3. eat leftover cold black beans and sweet potatoes out of the fridge. still hungry. make a green smoothie with a banana that has been sitting on the counter for 2 weeks. cover up the weird taste with a lot of frozen pineapple and spinach. still hungry. eat 1.5 frozen sunflower seed butter & dried cranberry balls that were created during an experiment. satisfied.

4. curl up on couch with computer. find tax documents. halfway fill out turbotax documents before losing interest.

5. move on to homework. a case study about depression! laugh at the irony.

6. chat with roommate in order to hash out the previous night’s events. nothing is left out. no stone is left unturned! every word of every conversation is examined and then cross examined, dissected, and slapped back together. it is now 11:30.

7.  decide to go running. pull on jacket and shoes. yes, you ran in your pajamas, but are they really considered pajamas if you also wear them to school, and they are actually just a pair of black leggings and nike socks? for a minute you consider becoming less of a slob, then reconsider.

8. leave house without gloves (bad idea). run around columbia heights dodging a lot of couples holding hands on 14th street and galentines dates in search of bottomless mimosas in which to drown their loneliness. there are literally rose petals littered all down the street. run exactly 4 miles of this debauchery before calling it good.

9. come home and shower. donuts on the counter! and bagels. tell yourself no and jump in the shower instead. wash your hair that hasn’t actually been washed for at least 8 days. you’re actually really proud of it. probably too proud. yeah you should probably bathe more. shave armpits. definitely don’t shave legs.

10. get dressed in front of your open window. you probably flash lots of people walking down the street, but whatever.

11. eat almonds while sauteeing kale and eggs. douse kale in soy sauce and eat it standing while talking to roommates about heaven knows what. still hungry. eat an apple. still hungry. eat another apple. still hungry. find yourself eating the exterior of a sesame seed bagel. like, skin the entire thing. become moderately disgusted with yourself.

12. put on your sleeping bag coat to go grocery shopping with your roommates. realize you’ve lost your wallet. hang your head in the shame that this is the 2nd time you’ve lost your wallet in two months. chalk this up as the best day ever. find a random credit card on dresser and activate it so you can buy food in the meantime.

13. traipse down the street with friends to roommate’s car, get inside, turn the key only to find that the battery is dead. groan in unison. call the only other person we know with a car to come and jump ours. get outside and pop the hood in the meantime as to act like we know what the hell is going on in there.

14. car gets jumped. we celebrate with a trader joe’s run. you buy a lot of things impulsively that seem like total luxuries and immediately regret it upon seeing the bill. mahi mahi burgers, soyrizo, a flat of strawberries, a million avocados, fancy hummus and spicy red pepper eggplant dip. (this will be a delicious week ahead.)

15. drive home as quickly as possible while scanning instagram. see a lot of couple on dates. so many selfies. so much handholding. so many descriptions filled with loving superlatives. this day is like visiting a zoo and watching the animals interract; kinda fun, kinda depressing, mostly weird. if you’re lucky, you can even witness them feeding each other.

16. run inside to put away perishables before work. throw on uniform and some semblance of makeup, just in case some attractive single male stumbles into the restaurant, we lock eyes, and just KNOW. put on bronzer because you fancy.

17. zip up sleeping bag coat, scarf, gloves. definitely don’t forget the gloves. ride through the ice wind to work with sharon van etten on full blast, crooning pessimism and heartbreak. you run a lot of stoplights and probably get honked at two or three times. you live for this!

18. get to work marginally late, but sneak in before anybody notices.

19. spend the evening balancing really hot plates of pot roast, filets, cedar plank salmon, and chicken and waffles on your arms. get a lot of couples to go bags. there’s a lot of hand holding. eat one million french fries right out of the fryer. eat a meatless meatloaf with vegan mashed potatoes that was abandoned by somebody at sometime during the night. sweat a lot in the kitchen. give booze recommendations. watch the blizzard outside. wonder if anyone would miss an entire red velvet cake if accidentally “vanished”.

20. finish work, punch out, and suit up for the arctic ride ahead. dump the snow out of your helmet and scrape the ice off the seat. gingerly ride home, ice wind almost knocking you over a few times. pass a lot of drunken lovebirds in dupont leaning on each other in order to make it safely through the cross walk. ride faster than you’ve probably ever ridden. it is now 1 am.

21. stumble inside, rip off clothes to defrost. curl up in bed despite the smell of food that clings to every strand of hair. see what gems social media is willing to offer up. chuckle at the absurdity and relish in the heater blowing directly in your face. fall asleep. you have single-handedly handled the day.

pun intended.

the last few weeks in photo-ography

welcome to the middle of winter! if you were wondering what is up with me, i am currently sitting here in this hole of a basement listening to the entire drake discography and looking at pizza recipes because what else is one to do on her morning off!!?? wednesday is like my saturday, and i am relishing. here’s some things from this week and last, you know, in the name of productivity. (and to convince you people that i do have some semblance of a life outside of learning how to stick people with needles)

not at all a bad thing, having your friends live but one creepy alley way awayProcessed with VSCOcam with b5 preset

it was ashley’s birthday. pro tip word to the wise: if you’re going to have a party for someone, you better let them know the party is going on before half the pizza is gone. whatever we lack in decency, we made up in two-bite cupcakes! and candles that say zero because age, be damned! (also, 0 is the most aesthetically pleasing digit.) Processed with VSCOcam with f2 preset

some weeks i “go to institute” but really the only reason is because chevy chase has the best shopping and best anthropologie in the DMV is right next door. the huckleberry cookbook is annoyingly awesome. Processed with VSCOcam with f2 preset

happy to live in shoebox with these folks. also happy about this dress, compliments of eliza. yes, i am wearing a sports bra in order to button it up but whatever looking like a boy is a small price to pay, as it was the most comfortable sunday of my life. Processed with VSCOcam with c1 presetthe next three photos are really important. this is because they highlight tim and me going to farmers fishers bakers and ordering like pregnant women aka ALL THE THINGS. first, sushi.

Processed with VSCOcam with f2 presetand then crab dip.

Processed with VSCOcam with f2 preset

and then pizza, but with brussels sprouts because we’re adults.  Processed with VSCOcam with f2 preset

waiting for the bus in the slush. Processed with VSCOcam with c1 preset

seeking refuge in the national portrait gallery’s courtyard. green trees!!!!!!!Processed with VSCOcam with c1 preset

been working a lot. this means eating a lot of founding farmers… but heck when free meals look like napa provencal trout with red whipped potatoes and kale, onion, pear sautee, life doesn’t seem that bad.  Processed with VSCOcam with f2 preseti’m resurrecting cooking thursdays, a utah tradition from my byu days with prior group members who are on now missions or getting married. feels good to be back in a kitchen with countertops. last week was tofu miso pho with fresh spring rolls. i must have been someone’s italian grandmother in a previous life because cooking for people is so satisfying. Processed with VSCOcam with c1 preset

bike ride home. weaving through cars in traffic and having them honk and yell at me is one of my most favorite past times.Processed with VSCOcam with f2 presetafter a long week at school, fridays are for mac and cheese with leslie knope. (trashed up with kale and chickpeas though, because NUTRIENTS!) Processed with VSCOcam with f2 presetmy work just opened a new restaurant in tysons corner, va, so we had to go check it out. this coy little smile was probably made possible by a mouth stuffed with shrimp and grits.  Processed with VSCOcam with c1 preset

we hardly spoke throughout the meal. it was NEXT LEVEL.Processed with VSCOcam with g3 preset

those donuts are actually cronuts filled with vanilla bean cream that i wouldn’t mind living inside. honorable mention goes to the poached eggs and beet hash, shrimp and grits, french toast with caramelized apples, and dark hot chocolate with hazelnut crunch.

Processed with VSCOcam with c1 preset

pinkies up! Processed with VSCOcam with f2 preset

and then we went to church with our favorite eighteen year old who has told me multiple times that i am the equivalent of a hot aunt. i don’t know what that means, but i’ll take it!

IMG_0072that’s all, folks!

journal 52: silhouettes

IMG_1783the night began innocently enough, one that now resides in my mind as a vague memory that, looking back, is like viewing at a matisse painting. from far away, the picture is clear, but when you get close enough to put your nose up to it, there is nothing but little cacophonous paint splotches, seemingly indistinguishable, meaningless, yet intriguing and will probably give you an impending headache if you stay too long.

the three of us had driven up to the dock with a plan in mind; set golf balls ablaze, then send them sailing into the water below. however, given our haphazard planning and the raging wind that often accompanies late spring, we quickly realized our fun wasn’t going to work out according to plan. i guess that is what happens when you put boys in charge of plans;  you end up watching youtube videos on someone’s dying iphone or you end up at taco bell.

after they’d had their time showing off and blaming the glare of the mood on the water for their bad aim, then doubling over in fits of laughter as i repeatedly missed the ball completely (i’d had one prior experience with golf in 8th grade pe, and given my… ahem, handicap, of being left handed, i’d modified by using a driver backwards, because that is how it felt most comfortable in my hands), we packed up our tees and set off towards the shore. a short-lived night, i’d be in bed by ten.

the two of them walked ahead of me, when an idea struck. “hey i’ll pay you twenty bucks if you jump off the dock!” i called ahead, thinking my words served more as an interjection, and not a directed question. thinking before speaking was never one of my strong suits.

here’s another thing i’ve learned about boys. they’ll do anything you tell them, especially if it lets them flash their man card. the words were hardly out of my mouth before one of them began peeling his clothes off right then and there… an event which was obscured by the abysmal darkness that, thankfully, not only shielded his utter nakedness, but my flushed cheeks, as well.

he sprinted down the dock without abandon, pumping his arms the entire fifty yards of ruddy wood; boards which creaked with every step and causing an orchestration that served as the only indication of his movement as his obscured figure approached the water’s edge. then, suddenly the glare of the moon on the water was interrupted with a splash as he catapulted himself into the water, followed by a gasp and a shriek as he surfaced. a holler of infectious euphoria.

and then it was his accomplice’s turn, and then it was mine.

sopping wet, we ended up at taco bell afterwards.

so i read this article

Processed with VSCOcam with x1 presetbike gangs of dc on the morning commute. carry on

>>reading

evidently expressive writing about your own life leads to greater happiness 

this article on how a lawyer was influenced by ruth bader ginsburg to be a stay at home dad was really beautifully done… but really, anything to do with RBG is always top notch.

not an article, but this expresses me sentiments exactly.

in response to last week’s article about falling in love, this article about how to fall OUT OF LOVE had me in stitches.

>>eating

this vegan sweet potato shepherd’s pie by jamie oliver. did i follow the recipe, though? nope. never.

these lava cakes for a friend’s birthday last week

>>watching

this hilarious video on guys and their shoes, because it is totally a THING. this video had us rolling. and rewatching. and requoting.

>>listening to

with my commute to school i’ve decided to listen to less tunes and more books for a change. z: a novel of zelda fitzgerald is my current obsession.

this week, a friend of a friend released a zine highlighting their favorite music of 2014, which was awesome, rekindling my love of little dragon, also this video feat. a lot of vaseline; but mostly just anything by sharon van etten

this is january

school is back in session and i’m listening to a conference on health disparities… which is obviously the best time to throw some stuff up on the blog, right? right. Processed with VSCOcam with c1 preset

last week it actually snowed. yep- about three inches and the city went ballistic. like schools closed and all of dupont circle lost power for a day or two… including a grocery store which was saved given a backup generator. it was apocalyptical. people were trying to shovel their snow with garden shovels and shielding themselves with umbrellas and rain boots. it was adorable. naturally, eliza and i went running through the sludgy mess, and in some strange cosmic clash of worlds, ran into a statue of joan of arc, which we didn’t really realize was joan of arc until i phonetically tried to pronounce JEANNE D’ARC and all but dismissed the chick on a horse. and you probably had to be there, but it had us rolling with laughter.IMG_0039

i’m a big fan of typefaces, this one in shaw is my favorite.  Processed with VSCOcam with c1 preset

also the painted brick in the snow is really somethingProcessed with VSCOcam with g3 preset

and the clouds. hey clouds.  Processed with VSCOcam with f2 preset

before school started again, i had a goal to get my room into order. photos framed, throw pillows thrown, etc etc etc. i actually quite like the way things turned out over here in the bombshelter.   Processed with VSCOcam with c1 preset

as fate would have it, i have another friend from byu who joined the clan of interns, so i finally have another soul to drag me to concerts and i’m not complaining about it. getting beer spilled on me by some sloppy intern every time i do go to a show, however. is something i will gripe about because it is gross. Processed with VSCOcam with f2 preset

look how adorable these friends are of mine during brunch at the tavern around the corner from my house! forget everything you’ve heard about dc, brunch tradition is the real national treasure.Processed with VSCOcam with f2 preset

frittatas after a long and grueling thirteen miler in rock creek park. bless eliza and jeff for dragging me out of the house to train with them. they’re training for a marathon (bless them, really) and i’m only signed up for the half, so i’m happy to say that i am trained and hope to keep all my toenails.Processed with VSCOcam with b5 preset

our friends have moved up in the world (literally) from a basement studio apartment into a second story place with WINDOWS!!!!! big windows. and it is only two streets away from our bombshelter, so obviously i like to go over for my recommended daily dose of vitamin d. seasonal affective disorder, be damned!  IMG_0043

church is at least a thirty minute drive away, so every sunday is a straight pilgrimage. here we are, sharing umbrellas and searching for amy’s parked car in the rain, probably late and we don’t care. (false. eliza totally cares) Processed with VSCOcam with c1 preset

if you were on a quest for world’s richest, creamiest, sugariest hot chocolate in the continental us, look no further than shake shack. but caution! HOT! Processed with VSCOcam with c1 preset

on my run the other day i took a break at the botanic garden by the capitol building. i have never been to a rainforest, but i think this is probably how it smelled. i felt like i was on the set of some low-budget dinosaur movie. where are the velociraptors?  Processed with VSCOcam with f2 preset

but really, if you need some plant life, head over there. i know i will be returning SOON!  Processed with VSCOcam with f2 preset

*hozier’s take me to church plays softly in the background* or not so much. Processed with VSCOcam with c1 preset

let’s play a game called, “capitol hill or disneyland?” Processed with VSCOcam with f2 preset

this is life from the inside of a CAR!! man, they go fast. also, winter sucks but the sunsets! cool! Processed with VSCOcam with b1 preset

these are the shoes i want to be buried in. my doc martens. i bought them for work, but i actually wear them every day. back off, haters.Processed with VSCOcam with c1 preset

this is me in madewell. i don’t know. i do know that this sleeping bag coat is the illest thing i’ve ever been gifted.

now who wants to go to the bahamas?